-5

Imagine a scale between -5 and +5. A measure of emotion if you will. Most people wake up at 0 then depending what happens that day they move up or down the scale. If bad things happen -2 or -3. Good things, +2 or +3. If you hit the lottery, hey +5. Divorce, debts, deaths can move you to -5. Most people live between -2 to +2. That's fine. Trouble comes when your days start on -2. If bad things happen your at -4 or even -5. -5 is definite risk of suicide.
-2 is where a lot of transgendered people live. The odds are stacked from the start. So much of life says transexuals are weak, perverted, less than a man, worthy of ridicule, worthy of laughing at. I was disgusted by effeminate men before I new I was one. I was disgust by what I was before I knew what I was. I was hiding what I was before I knew what I was.
"You don't have to damage me. I'm already damaged". Seems Freud was right so much of who we are depends on our childhood. Freud said parents, I say everything, everything that happens in the world around us.
When I deal with hatred, I have to deal with it twice, theirs and mine. I have to work twice as hard just to get back to -2. The effect of the last few nights events have put me at -4. That's why hate crime is different because the effect is multiplied. The effects are more serious. The effects are serious. Picking on the already weakened goes against societies beliefs. You don't pick on the handicapped.
"I'm not handicapped,". Really?, how many times did you think about suicide last year?.
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